So I've been looking for advice...

I am terrible at consistency when it comes to studying, but when I had a little meltdown back in '08, freaking out about my future and stuff, one of my pastors at Hillvue, pastor Jeff Reynolds, hooked me up with a DVD study by Andy Stanley, called "Discovering God's Will." I did the first one almost right away, because the topic excited me.




I just did the second one today. And again, I learn something new. Funny how that works, you study God's word, and you learn something new. Anywhos...

Today's study dealt with how we look at God when we turn to Him. See, most of us want to know what God wants to do with us before we sign on. We want all the details first. That's just how we are, it's how we've been taught with everything else. We don't take a job without asking certain questions, we have to have details. But God don't work like that a lot, we gotta show our faith by signing on to His plan, even if we don't know what's going on.

Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; ⁶ in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.

See, we gotta say, "God, my answer is yes, now where should I go?" Because too many times, we just take God's plan and take it like advice from a friend, consider an option, then make the decision yourself. Lean on our own understanding. God doesn't give his plan for consideration...He shows us His will expecting OBEDIENCE. That's been my problem. Ultimately, I've believed the decision has come down to me, and what I want to do. It's time to realize that I'm broken, my way sucks, and His way is awesome. It's time to stop taking advice from God, and take direction from Him.

I'm sure I'll talk more about this study, it's worth looking into. Hopefully it won't be over a month before I open it again.

So I think I'm over it....

Yeah, all that stuff in the last post....I'm over it now....

Just caught myself really trying to force myself into liking a girl, that's enough of that....

That's all...

So my thoughts on this day...

That's right, a Valentine's Day post, or a Singles Awareness Day, whichever you like to see it as. I've never really experienced the fullness of this day, cuz if you've seen my 25 things on facebook, I've never had a girlfriend this time of the year (along with basically every major holiday). I expect that to change, but probably not in the next 11 hours. And I'm totally cool with that. But to celebrate, I guess I'm gonna share my thoughts on the whole love thing in my experience.....

I have a skewed viewpoint on relationships. Not because of my parents. It's probably because of their relationship that I even want to get married someday. They truly love eachother, and constantly serve as a reminder of what God can do in all things if we just let them. I blame my hometown. See, growing up in Booneville, people were always hooking up, but not doing anything. There's nothing to do in Booneville. It's a good hour to the nearest movie theater, and basically anything you would go to on a date (nice place to eat, putt putt, etc.). So most couples would either drive around town for hours, hang out in the Family Dollar parking lot, or stay at home and get to baby makin'. None of those options really appealed to me, so whenever I did have a girlfriend, it was someone on the track team with me, and we would just hang out on track meets. Thus, no significant emotional attachment to a girl. I also think it's left me a little socially inept.

But something I developed in that time was this need inside to always be infatuated with somebody. I've always had a crush on a girl, even if I had to force it on myself. Why? I don't know. And that's kinda what I'm doing now. I kinda like this girl, but I never see her. And I don't really know that much about her. So why do I like her? I'm guessing because I always have to have a crush on a girl, and she's kinda cute. But is that all? I hope not.

I'd like to say I'm perfectly content on being single and waiting for the one God has for me...but I don't think it's necessarily true. I'm impatient, anxious, and making my momma more nervous by the day. And with no relatively decent chance of that changing anytime soon would be enough to make one depressed on this day.

But I'm not...go figure right? I guess that while I'm all those things in the last paragraph, I'm also confident that my Heavenly Father has me, and loves me more than I'll ever comprehend. Cool.

So being sick sucks...

That's all I really wanted to say...it's not even that I'm drastically sick, just got a severe head cold, which is still bad when you're a DJ and you need your voice. Not to mention I have to use hand sanitizer every 5 minutes cuz I blow my nose, then sanitize so I don't spread nothin'.

Here's to getting off the air soon, watching 24 (cuz a stupid head cold can't keep me away from Jack), and going home to some good ol' Nyquil.

Deuces!

So there was this game last night...

And it was Awesome!!! Man what a great Super Bowl. I think my viewing experience was only enhanced by having a true Steelers fan with me, going nuts, yelling screaming, forcing others to cower in fear of this tiny little man. I love my friends!!

If only I would have recorded my prediction that I made on the air Saturday during my shift, in which I said...
"Steelers will jump out to a big lead in the first half...Then Arizona will come back late in the third, but the Steelers pull it out in the fourth."

Which is basically what happened, except it took the Cardinals a bit longer to come back then I predicted, but still, a great game. Just as good as last years, which I thought would be hard to top...

So Georgia fired Felton huh?

Aiight, the last post was kinda depressing, I want something new up here, and I found this story interesting.

Georgia has fired their Basketball coach Dennis Felton, who coached at WKU before taking on the dogs. A less than stellar career there had him poised to get booted last season, but an improbable run through the SEC tournament kept him in seat for another season...well, the beginning of it at least.

You know who else made a coaching change recently? Alabama. They fired their coach too. I don't think the firing of these two coaches in proximity to each other is a coincidence. Let me share a little fact with you...

Tubby Smith will be coaching in the SEC next season.

Now the question is with who. Rumors had been going rampant that both Georgia and Alabama would look to Ol' Tubby next season for their coach. Both have a reasonable chance to land him too.

Georgia is Tubby's home. It's where he grew up, he knows the area. And to come back could be a cool little homecoming for him.

Alabama has CM Newton, the man who brought Tubby in to UK. It was after Newton left UK that relations went south for Tubby in the Bluegrass. Plus many believe that Bama is closer to being successful in the SEC and NCAA than Georgia.

LET THE BIDDING WAR BEGIN!!

So this might come as bad news...

It was friday afternoon. Some friends had come in from out of town, and we had just finished a late lunch at Beijing. My phone rings... a 423 number, a call that I actually was dreading, because I knew what was coming.

Don't get me wrong, I love Jerry Harwood. He is the man. But I knew this was a business call. The time had come unfortunately, to let him know if I would be coming back to camp or not. I have pretty much battled with this since I left camp last summer, and the fact I haven't found steady employment since then doesn't help things. The moment had come, and I was not prepared at all. It was the final yes or no, and at this time...I had to say no... So Joe Brunk....will not be at CVP this summer.

That statement is hard for me to swallow, and I've been confused and frustrated since that call. It's so closed, no misinterpretation, no way to come out with a happy ending.

Maybe it was something that had to happen. Maybe this door had to be closed so another can open. Maybe this is God answering my prayer, and I'm acting like a baby. Maybe I just wanted to be at camp for my own selfish reasons, and not for God's purpose.

But maybe I made a mistake. Maybe I'm supposed to be at camp, and I'm running away. Maybe I'm focusing on the wrong things, like money, and looking out for me.

Why do I overanalyze stuff? It really just makes things more complicated and never really helps the situation.

So here's some things I'm missing out on...(In no particular order)
1. Driving boats all day
2. My Dockwatch video. (I basically had a full script in my head)
3. Deepening relationships with guys staff who are returning.
4. Weekends in the 'Nooge.
5. Floating in the swim area, and hanging out with campers.
6. Camp food
7. Living in the new guys staff lodge
8. World cup (Djibouti!)
9. Friday night raves
10. Camp cheers, and the half-hour schedule reading....

and there's more, but I'm already struggling to finish, and I could go all day.

Here's to the continued faith that God really does know what He's doing, and the fact that it's not really about me in the first place.